How Do You Deal with the Death of a Loved One?

Forgot I had this blog...so I am going to be more active.  First note:  The next few posts will be "re-posts" directly from my website. www.eliciaclegg.com 

My grandma Betty, My grandpa Stan, My father Merrill, My brother Aaron, My uncles: Randy and Gary.  My cousin Jeremy, My In-laws: Grandpa and Grandma Petersen, My Father In-law Ken.  My close friend Charles.  Several of my friends fathers and the list goes on.

I deal with death by crying....Yes, let it all out.  Crying is a good way of letting the physical body feel and then purge the sadness of never being able to see that person on Earth again.  And of course time, nothing heals better than time.

Now the question I have for you is...do you believe we sometimes dream about Heaven?
Do we sometimes dream about those we love and is the dream real?  Or is the dream just a dream?

I sometimes believe they are real, and if so it leaves me with a good feeling of hope.  I have seen my father several times, stuck in a weird limbo of his own mind.  It has been so many years and for years I dreamt he was stuck in his store that he owned, and each time I saw it the store grew older and more warn down.  Recently however he was finally out of the store, this gives me hope he will soon be born again and live happily this time and not lead a life that will cause him and others so much pain.

Last night I had a wonderful dream that my cousin Jeremy was briefly in.   I was walking out of my sister in-laws and friend Camilla's house.  The phone rang and she stopped me saying it was for me, which was weird because no one knew where I was there.

I was saying hello? hello?  and I hear Jermey's  voice.  Then I notice the same music playing in the living room as on the phone.  I turn around and there he was.

Jermey was no longer sick, he looked as he did as a child, but in man form, like he was 24 or 25 but healthy.  I ran up and held so tightly to him as I looked and saw he had 2 boys looking after him, he was a father...which in life he never was.  It was so wonderful, and then I woke up....I woke up and had forgotten he was gone and was about to call him and then remembered....WAM!!!

Nothing like forgetting someone has passed for a second as you go to call them to pull you back down to earth.  It was a shocking feeling, but I am happy for him, and hope the dream was real because he was finally happy, healthy, and loved by two beautiful little boys.  

To all who have lost, which we all have or will at some point....It will be okay eventually, keep trying to move forward and know that one day the pain will ease and you will only have the good feelings when you remember them.